Amazon dropped all 10 episodes of the third season ofTransparenton Sept. 23.
Ive got everything I need, she says, fingering her pashmina.
So why am I so unhappy?
But theres no time for additional reflection, as Maura heads to the LGBT suicide hotline call center.
But she pushes it aside, to pursue her mission.
Finally, she spots a group of three trans women inside a wig and weave shop.
(Are you family?)
Maura tentatively asks in Spanish.
Then, Maura makes a severe misstep when she asks whether theyve seen someone like Elizah on the streets.
The Latinas are offended and rightly so.
Would Maura have done the same in her position?
Whats wrong with me?
Maura asks as shes wheeled past shelves of baseball caps and cheap wigs.
At any other moment, would Maura recognize herself?
A shoplifter, with dirty bare feet, en route to county?
At this point, could she be, as Raquel ponders during her hike, her own Messiah?
Maybe it isnt a one-time temple talk, she tells boyfriend Buzzy.
And theres more: What if the show had a musical component?
One person whos living her truth?
(Or at least more so than anyone else seems to be on the show?)
I was with somebody, we got close, she tells the hunky new widowed cantor Duvid.
Sarahs certainly rooting for it.
In the end though, knowing oneself seems to be key to moving forward.
Thats the takeaway for Maura, who acts on Divinas advice to listen to her body.
Mom-Shelly isnt having it, but Mort thinks its a great name for a turtle.Burn.
After much bickering, the family agrees on the name Nacho.
She walks through a forest completely naked; both she and Caitlyn solve the puzzle God is a woman.
Meanwhile, Raquel is at synagogue meeting about who will be admitted onto the board.
They criticize her dark energy and claim she celebrates divorce.
Sarah is rightfully shocked.
You have an enemy at mid-city, Raquel tells her.
Maura gets a new haircut, complete with clip-on bangs she looks at least 10 years younger.
But shes not the only one shaving years off her age.
Shelly and Buzz arrive at chez Pfefferman to celebrate Mauras birthday on… wait for it… a motorcycle.
Maura arrives to her birthday party with Vicki, and the family is in shock over her new look.
We have the same haircut!
Over birthday cake, Maura announces that one of her wishes is to no longer be called Moppa.
The table goes silent.
Did you show her how to put a tampon in?
Mauras second wish: Shed like to start transitioning medically and wants everyones support.
Next on the birthday party agenda is a family game of Sardines.
Sarah and Ali hide in a shed and start bickering over Josh.
You fing stole him from me the second you were born, Sarah says.
Its Nacho the turtle, 20 years later!
Maura stares deep into Nachos eyes just think how much has changed since she last saw him.
And that neck flab?Gone.
But before she can move forward, Maura needs to get a note from her therapist.
One problem: She doesnt have one.
Vicki leans in and asks Maura if thats really true, and Maura says no.
After spending the night with Leslie, Ali confesses that she thinks she cheated with Aubrey, the TA.
They start kissing and ultimately, Ali convinces Leslie to play hooky for the day.
Meanwhile, Sarah is sweating her ass off in spin class.
Shes so into it, she even participates unironically in the group chant.
she screams among her fellow Lululemon-clad women.
After class, Sarah goes up to the instructor, Una, and introduces herself.
Turns out, Una is dating Len, Sarahs ex-husband.
Can I ask you something?
What is the attraction?
I mean, I get why he likes you, but…Len?
Its all good after all, Sarahs the one paying.
Sarah screams, curses, and completely spirals, ignoring her partners safe word.
Josh and Rita watch a video of their son, Colton, giving a sermon.
I just really miss him, says Rita, caressing Joshs shoulders.
Ive been thinking about this a lot, and you were young, too.
But I did want to say…
I forgive you, Josh tells her.
Rita gives Josh the cassette and tells him that she doesnt need it anymore.
It will have votive candles, beanbag chairs, and even… tacos!
(Best synagogue ever.)
Raquel is into the plan and admits that shes wanted to do something very similar for years.
They agree to name it Hineni, which in Hebrew means Here I am.
Is he playing the song he wrote for Rita all those years ago?
Cut to a melancholy Rita, whos going up way up a mall escalator.
She seems to have just left Josh and is still in the same outfit she was wearing with him.
When she gets to the top floor, she stands against the railing, looks down… and jumps.
Josh is reeling from Ritas death.
Maura comes over and is shocked by the news.
Josh, interestingly, first says that Rita tripped but then allows she may have jumped.
(How this is a question and not just wishful thinking I do not know.)
Wow, that is incredibly messed up.
Josh says that even more strongly.
She apologies for being a bad parent and Josh doesnt forgive her but nods.
When Josh tells her that Jewish men dont do demo, Maura says: I am a Jewish woman.
Jewish women do whatever the f they want.
Someone hey start needlepointing this immediately.
Elsewhere, at the Hineni Shabbat Sarah extravaganza, the gym has actually cleaned up quite nice.
Sarah seems happy even if they couldnt get the taco lady and have to make do with pupusas instead.
(This is a long running and amusing joke in this episode.)
Len is there and its nice to see him and Sarah in such a nice place.
She takes him to a room off the gym and says all the right thing.
They hug and when Josh says he wants to live inside the hug, I believe him.
Leslie is not fitting in well.
The bloom is clearly beginning to fall off the rose for Ali.
Later, in fact, Leslie falls in a hole which is amazing!
and while Ali tends to her, Leslie tells her that shes in love with her.
Ever hear the expression Be careful what you wish for?
Thats what Alis face says.
Its an emotional moment, especially for Raquel who completely breaks down.
Is she finally mourning the end of her and Josh?
Perhaps, but its heartbreaking and Josh gets it and leaves.
Interestingly, he leaves to go watch Shea strip… as if his life isnt nearly complicated enough.
Josh looks over at his sleeping road trip buddy and looks a little astonished himself.
Meanwhile, Leslie turns out to be a very needy patient and Ali is not feeling it.
She seems kind of desperate to escape, actually.
Shea and Josh stop for the night and end up wandering into an open mic night.
Josh grabs his guitar and sings his Rita song, and he and Shea lock eyes meaningfully.
Back on the road, they talk about exes and the difficulties of dating as a transgender person.
She schools him about the realities of bottom surgeries and how many women end up working as sex workers.
But they get off this subject when they spy an abandoned amusement park.
They hop the fence and start fa-la-la-la-ing around, having fun.
But they start making out and then later making out more intently.
To put it mildly, Josh does not handle this well.
Then he brings up the fact that condoms arent always 100 percent.
He also charmingly implies hes paid for Sheas company.
Shea, bless her, lets him have it.
I am not your adventure, Im a person, she screams.
And this is a really tough moment but good for her.
She tells him to grow the f up and stomps off.
We know, Josh.
She just sort of eye rolls and gets in the car.
I wonder if shell tell Maura about all this?
I have a hard time believing anyone wants to go to the dentist but there you are.
That was the biggest takeaway from this shaggy episode, which had a lot going on.
But things really start to get heated when Vicki starts bonding with Bryna.
They have a good laugh when Bryna mistakes Vicki for being trans, and Maura doesnt appreciate their laughter.
Nor does she appreciate it when they start telling her she doesnt need surgery.
And thats not the only relationship that blows up in the episode.
Can you clarify for me really fast what spirituality is for you, Sarah?
Its not changing your mind whenever you feel like it … Its not following your bliss.
Then, Raquel says she wants nothing to do with the Seder and starts break down.
Its by far one of Kathryn Hahns best and most moving performances on this show yet.
I want to give her all of the awards.
Meanwhile, Josh finally arrives in Kansas to tell Colton about Ritas death.
There, Colton asks if anyone wants to be saved.
Josh raises his hand, walks up to Colton in front of the congregation, and half-heartedly accepts Jesus.
The fact that Sarah and Josh are turning to religion in their current states is easy to understand.
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Episode 8: If I Were a Bell
Welcome toTransparentseason 3s requisite flashback episode.
And Shelleys past was even more so.
Haim says to Rose, referring to Tante Gittel.
You make him stop this or you get out of my house.
Its a thoroughly upsetting scene for obvious reasons.
Youre a boy, Maura, no matter how many of moms dresses you wear.
Meanwhile in Brentwood in the same year, Shelleys music teacher asks her to meet him after school.
Young Shelley is traumatized and doesnt speak or eat for days.
(This episode also helped me understand why Shelley is just now getting back into performing.)
Then we move forward to 1967 and see the first time Maura and Shelley meet.
At the time, Maura was dating Shelleys best friend, but their attraction was quite instant.
Her dominatrix ditches town, leaving her client baffled and craving some S&M.
Mauras, understandably, pretty upset about her doctors orders.
Across the country, Josh is dealing with his problems in a very different way.
Kansas Josh is ready to be Coltons hip, young dad fulltime.
Colton, though, isnt ready to play son to him.
He very maturely sits Josh down and says that they never actually talked about him moving there.
Im your dad, Josh says.
Youre not, Colton responds as warmly as he can.
Shelly sees right through it, and calls him on it.
He made the story up, and Shellys not about to cohabitate with a liar.
With that, Buzzy gets the boot.
He pulls Sarahs hair and slaps her ass, both to a positive response.
Thats one way to deal with a bad day.
Thats a terrible idea!
And Shellys not happy about it.
Luckily, she has one confidante willing to listen on this trip: Trevor, her personal butler.
But Trevors not having it: This is Shelly Time, and Shelly deserves all of these luxuries.
As he proposes this idea to her, she sips on champagne garnished with a strawberry.
You guys treated me horribly, she says.
You treat me horribly most of the time, so why dont you just go?
This cruise is going great.
Mauras also having some me-time, buying a gaudy new outfit in one of the ships stores.
Ali later finds her decked out leaning over the railing and asks whats up with the new look.
But otherwise, it just feels like a costume.
It feels like Im hiding.
They yell and they laugh and then they throw those tight, terrible Spanx in the trash.
Also in the trash: $25,000 of Joshs money.
This is also sad and hard, but in a completely different way.
This is what you get for letting your sister gamble literally thousands of dollars on a whim.
Unsurprisingly, it doesnt go well.
Josh leaves early on, and Shelly admits that she isnt at home in this family.
Trevor, this seasons surprise MVP.
There, she starts off by talking about how shes drawn to men with secrets.
But then a beaming Shelly launches into a touching cover of Alanis Morissettes Hand in My Pocket.
Shes in her element.
And shes absolutely killing it.
Transparentdoesnt always make you feel like everythings gonna be quite all right.
