I never wanted this to happen, of course not, Kardashian told Howard Stern.
But Ive always feared this would happen.
Odom and Kardashian were in the process of getting divorced, butshe called it offonce he was hospitalized.

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Im there helping him and I love him and Ive always loved him, shetold Ellen DeGeneres in November.
Helping Odom includes preventing him from seeing media coverage, something that has been a struggle.
One day I came in, and he was Googling Lamar Odom overdose,' she told Stern.
I grabbed the iPad, I said, What the f are you doing?
Ive been trying to protect you …
I have to remember, he has no idea what people know.
We tell him he had a brain injury, she said.
I cant tell him how that brain injury was caused because it will set him back.
Watch the clip of Kardashian onHoward Sternbelow.