And then my familys once again dealing with this kind of stuff.
I wanted to deal with the idea of loss and grieving and how you come out of that.
I didnt know Kevin personally beforehand, but I finished my script and my agents got it to him.
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Its not going to be too easy.
He responded to the script enough that he agreed to have a meeting with me.
But it wasnt like at the end of lunch, he was like, Ill be in your movie.
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But I left feeling like, theres a chance this could happen.
Its really a low-budget movie.
I feel like I beat the odds.
Anybody, especially comedians, we just hate ourselves so much.
You cant enjoy it even when something kind of good is happening.
Youre like, Meh.
Its like, just take a breath… until you get pounded on the internet for making something sincere.
Youve never really addressed these topics in your stand-up before.
Did you feel any hesitation about putting something so personal into the world?Yeah, definitely.
And then I realized, nobody cares about my kids.
For a while, I stubbornly, especially in my stand-up, just clung to jokes.
People connect differently now.
A lot of comedians open up.
Maybe its too much, I dont know.
Ive stubbornly triednotto do that, not to share things about my life.
Sometimes it feels like youre asking a lot of people to listen toyourstory.
Especially the white, straight dudes.
You slip pretty quickly into that pocket if youre not careful.
Heres how things are!
Im gonna tell you how things are!
Im giving you a long, convoluted answer, but the short answer is yes, Ive been hesitant.
Its not about really being clever or detached.
Its the opposite, really.
Its about really kind of going for it.
Like, try your hardest to be impenetrable.
But I dont know, it seems like a mistake.
What effect has making this movie had on you emotionally?I thought it would be therapeutic.
I blew past anything therapeutic and back into self-hatred just looking at my face up there on the screen.
Even if it goes well, youre still left with yourself.
I get to see my nose from every single angle now.
Im like, Jesus Christ.
But thats what I asked for, I guess.
And theres nothing I can do about it.
Its just out there.
So when I connect with people, its a relief.
Youre like, Hey, thats kind of validating because I put a lot more out there.
