Chelsea Handler is able to find something positive out of one of the darkest times for her family.

The eldest Handler sibling died after he fell off a cliff in Jackson Hole, Wyoming.

And then you cant protect them and you couldnt save them?

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Ultimately, it was kind of a beautiful gift because we all value each other so much.

Another gift Handler feels blessed with is her memories of growing up the baby of her family.

They took care of me, she says of her five older siblings.

They took me everywhere, and I was a little rascal.

Theyd go to their high school parties and bring me because I had this attitude.

I was their little entertainment wind-up doll.

She continues, He would always come upstairs to my moms bedroom and be like, Where is she?

We played that game all the time.

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Handlers Netflix showChelseabegins streaming May 11.